meh

you brought me to a high no money could buy

then you dropped me

down, down, down, down

I fell from so far

shattered so easily

and you didn't see because of the miles between

but you're the one who pushed yourself to such a distance from me

you left me broke, beauty-less, lonely

Seeing Stars

I've started to see stars

but they're in your eyes too --

we just keep spinning round

and we're waiting to

come to our senses,

but we're knocking down fences

'cause there ain't nothing

the world can hide from us

and I can't wait to

spin through my life with you,

spend my whole life with you.

first time

your coolness feels fresh

against my skin tonight

as the sky quakes

around us in shades of grey,

flashes of white

and the dark engulfs us,

and I feel safe with you

in our candle-lit nervousness.

the rain against the windows --

small bullets of beauty --

drowns out the

harshness of my heart's

beating at my chest.

but my breathing is heavy

so you lull me to a calmness

with your fingers grazing

down my cheek and your

whispers sinking in my ears.

and I let you sink into me.

your slow and smooth strides

make me quiver and

my smile shakes

when our stormy soundtrack

picks up the pace,

so I grip onto you and

paint your body across mine

(with no space left between).

we breathe together,

collide and collide as we

slide together in the fervor

of our first coition

but as familiar lights

brightly shine through rain-

specked windows,

we both know

there's no time to finish.

and as we rip ourselves

from one another

in a heated, heart-heaving haste,

I know you're the only

one I'd want to

hold my innocence.

11:11

11:03 this Monday night,

I'm tired, excited, unsure of you

and how you feel.

It's winter outside, I can guess

'cause of snow-covered dead grass and

ice-adorned tree limbs,

and it's cold and dark

but I'm waiting for you.

My ears, wind-stung and ringing,

listen out for your response.

Now my toes are numb.

I'm hanging onto the bars of the balcony,

leaning,

looking, and

liking what I see,

wondering how it'd feel to jump twice in one night.

The incandescent campus lamps

are small from here and

turn into fire flies

and they reflect their orangey glows

on the slightly-thickening snow

when one small frost flake lands on my nose.

Still, it's cold and dark,

but I'm waiting.

Now I hear your call and I read your words

and these last eight minutes have changed my world --

this time, I don't need to wish

on a set of four numbers,

'cause I got what I wanted

when I first leaped for you.

Mini... thing

You're not some breath of used air

but it took me less than a dare

to agree to lovin' you.

At the Beach

slowly, the night becomes ours --

we lay down a blanket of sky

over the sand

and watch the tide crash into itself.

steadily, I lean back, a crescent,

the moon --

I am the moon, and

our sky is clear, my sun --

you are the sun.

sweetly, you sit behind me, hiding

but your brightness,

in all of its boundless beauty,

reflects off of me and

gives us tonight.

softly, we light up our world --

not quite together,

but you cradle me constantly

and I feel your light on me always.

How I Love You

I know how I've loved you in the morning --

your lazy, recently-woken smiles,

accompanied by your languid,

slightly-open kisses,

have let me leave my dreams behind because

my world has become my wishes.

I've noticed the way I love you through the day --

your handsome, half-grin looks

let me slip into a daze 'cause that

face of yours

leaves me breathless and weak-kneed,

so I nearly hit the floors.

I promise that I'll love you every night --

you'll keep us tightly-entwined

with your sweet holds,

so you'll let me leave all else alone,

but we're gonna make it to the end of the earth

and through every step, we'll be at home.

Nothing Special #3 (from a few months ago)

People think we've just got growing pains,

but this isn't some crush,

so there aren't any aches.

I'm at the point of going sane

and you should know you're all to blame.

Nothing Special #2 (from a few months ago)

You and I, I can't deny,

have this terrifying,

law-defying,

sanctified love and I've got

this joy and pride

that can testify what I claim,

and I can promise that nothing

has been the same.

And ain't it a shame

that we took so long

to tell each other how we felt?

Nothing Special #1 (from a few months ago)

I want to lie in your arms every night

and wake up every morning next to you.

I want our rich neighbors to hear us fight

and think that we're crazy, which I guess is true.

You'll hear me bang on your drums,

not knowing what to do.

I'll wear the old t-shirts you don't want any more

'cause they're part of you.

restless renderings of you

they ricochet within the confines of my skull

scrape my mind,

scrape then carve deep

deeper than you ever got when we were together

haha

get it?

I feel lost and less beautiful than he ever let me know he thought I was, lethargic, listless, lost in this land mine of a mind of mine 'cause no matter where I try to go in my mind, I end up stepping on a mine that explodes with a memory that makes me cry inside, then outside and it hurts inside, then outside.